On instagram I was nominated to do one of those ‘fuck you…’ selfies aimed at mental disorders such as anorexia, depression, anxiety and many others.
And I have decided to post it on here too, for many reasons but largely because I finally feel the most normal that I have been in ages, only having the odd wobble back into a slightly depressive state but on the whole I am happy.
So towards my depression the most, which sparked a kind of eating disorder, anxiety and psychotic episodes fuck you for taking away over 3 years of my life which I will never get back. Fuck you for causing my old best friend and I to drift apart, fuck you for making my mum worried every single day about my safety, fuck you for driving me to the point of a suicide attempt, fuck you for almost taking away every last bit of motivation I had for the future I deserve and lastly fuck you for being a bitch to me and so many others I know.
I can honestly say that although the road won’t be easy and I don’t know what is it come I am more ready than I have ever been to finally beat my depression and if in 6 months time I was wrong and I am worse than ever, then at least I can honestly say that I tried because this time I really am going to try beat this.
I nominate any one of my followers to do a ‘fuck you….’ selfie and shoot down one of their mental illnesses because you are so much more than them and I know that one day you can beat them!
Love you all lots, Nicole xxx